First Christmas

Music and Lyric by David W. Jacobsen
Copyright 2010 - 2016. All Rights Reserved.

This is the first Christmas since you left
And I didn't bother getting a tree
This is my first Christmas without you
And it's your first without me

This is the first Christmas on my own
After seven years with you
Yes I've begun to move forward
But it's hard now not to review

I almost sent you a card but
I was trying not to look behind
Still each decoration I see's
A shared moment inside my mind

There's you and I with our presents
Exchanging on Christmas days
There's years of knowing what's coming
Now we've both gone our separate ways

Colored lights on all the houses on the street
Festive songs playing everywhere
I try to live in the here and now
It doesn't feel like Christmas somehow

And you're with your family
And I'm with my thoughts
I look out and see the neighbor's tree
It doesn't feel like Christmas to me

I saw a gift that you'd love
But I know not to send it your way
Perhaps you've already got one
Or someone else will give it to you today

I bet that you're not alone now
I'm sure whoever spent a mint at the store
For the gift he gives on your first Christmas
I hope you like the one I once gave you more

This is the first Christmas on my own
And each ending leads to something new
And next year I'll spend it with some one
But I know it won't be you

Decorations in all the shops
Snowflake, tinsel, pine
To a decision we must adhere
It doesn't feel like Christmas this year

I walk alone on this day
Through quiet streets in the cold
Knowing the past we must disavow
It doesn't feel like Christmas somehow

This is the first Christmas since you left
And I didn't bother getting a tree
This is my first Christmas without you
And it's your first without me